Oh for overdone cuteness

Crazy? - probably. A little ridiculous? - perhaps. Overly sweet & sappy & totally adorable? - YES. Well, at least in my opinion. :)

Check out long distance relationship pillows!

Little inspirations

Gosh dangit...these get me every time.

Watching this gets me more excited. : )
6 days.

Is this real life?

Well...it's time. Almost. But it might as well be next week with how I've been feeling the past two days, which is kind of like this kid (^).

Two months ago, November 9th seemed light years away! Now it's staring me in the face & it's so close I hardly have room to breathe! (For those of you who have no idea why November 9th holds any significance, check it out.) 

Being a girl, and being me, I want to address basically one thing in this entry: feelings. They are something that have been a hot topic of conversation the past couple months. I can't even tell you how many times I've been asked if I'm excited. By gads of people. Pretty much on a daily basis.

Where to start? Two months ago I had no idea how I felt about this new adventure, with the exception of one thing: I knew it was right for me to go. I mean it is right. But even now, after countless prayers & peaceful confirmations, I'm still a little unsure. I guess that's the only way to describe how I'm "feeling" at the moment. & as you know, I've been given plenty of opportunities to evaluate my feelings. The only thing I can really compare it to is going away to college for the first time.

I remember waking up the morning my parents were to drive me to BYU-Idaho campus and leave me there. For four long months. Once again, much like now, my emotions didn't know what to do, so they did the most logical thing: nothing. I didn't really feel a thing about going off to live on my own for the first time ever. Even as we loaded ourselves into the big green van, which was stuffed to the top with all my "stuff", it was like we were going to get some eggs at the grocery store. You know, something totally mundane and everyday.

It wasn't until we saw the school, until we actually saw the "BYU-Idaho" sign, that I started to sense my "old" life slipping away into the past, and reality hit. I was really doing this. I was really going to live on my own for an entire four months! It was jarring, and a little bit nerve racking, but as soon as my parents hugged me goodbye I walked back into my apartment, looked around, and said to myself, "Pft. College is going to be a cinch!" And you know what? It kind of was. In fact, I don't think it was until a few weeks in that I thought, "Hmm...maybe I should give my parents a call. I like them. I should let them know how I'm doing." & Now, three years later, and maybe even wiser (?), I realize that it wasn't college that scared me, it was the unknown.

Today, just a short week away from a the start of something new, it's the same. The unknown is staring me down. It's daring me to come and explore.

Advice is fantastic! It's great. I love it! And I was given LOTS of it before I left for school. Especially concerning dishes, and dating, how to deal with dumb roommates - the usual. But when it comes down to it, you just don't know until you do it. Between stories of broken hearts and dumping dishes onto roommates beds because they just wouldn't wash them, I was a little freaked out. But our imaginations sometimes make reality out to be a lot scarier than it actually is. College was, and is, great! I loved it! I only had one crazy roommate (well, two. But one of them was my best friend so...) whose mom cussed me out at the end of the semester, met some great people, had a couple romps in the snow, and got my heart broken for the first time ever! So all in all, it was a total success. Not scary!

So a mission...let's start with the fact that I've been told, I don't know how many times, that it's going to the best and worst year and a half of my life. Some of the highest highs and some of the lowest lows. I would be lying if I said that that doesn't cause me to pause and reflect a little bit every time I hear it. Not to mention it's hard to know what to say to someone when they do say that to you -
"So a mission! You're going to love it. It's so wonderful. It's going to be some of the best times of your life. And some of the worst. ...Good luck!"
"...Thank you?"
I guess it has made me, on multiple occasions, reevaluate why I'm going. Why in the world am I leaving behind my life for 18 months to go to Denver where it's cold and they have four seasons, to wake up at 6:30 am every morning, live the same routine every day, talk to complete strangers about one of the most faux pas subjects ever - religion -  and most likely get made fun of and have doors slammed in my face while doing it?

Well, it's pretty simple. I love the gospel. I love my religion. I know it's true. I know the joy that it brings me, and if God wants me to go get a few doors slammed in my face so that just maybe one person can have that same happiness, then so be it.

So...am I excited? Am I nervous? Am I ready?
I guess. Yes. And no.

Tell you what - let's reconvene in 18 months and then we can talk about how I'm feeling. : )

My poor children...

...I have no other words for this.

So they tell me...

SO my dad informed me a few nights ago that one of the biggest problems new missionaries face is social distress. WHAT?! No Facebook? No texting? No BLOGGING?! EVER?! FOR A YEAR AND A HALF?! Well, I don't know if I'll fit in the category of those suffering from face-to-face/real communication, but just in case I am, I'm going to start weening myself from Facebook. SO I just got a great idea!! Every time I want to update my status, I'll write it in my journal instead! Isn't that cute?! I bet that's just what they did in the old days. They wrote down (in 140 characters or less, of course) what kind of mood they were in, or whatever they were feeling, and then passed it around the campfire for everyone to read. It took a lot longer, naturally, and some probably developed extreme double personalities, but at least it gave everyone a chance to vent, right?

"I don't do that. I do this."

Sometime last year (I think?) I started a long-term relationship with Seinfeld. It's true. Some time before that my sister discovered these shorts made by American Express for American Express. While they're, obviously, a plug for the company, the videos are SO funny! Plus, the guy who does the voice for Superman is also the voice of Kronk. Could it get much better? Just... watch them. Love them. Then, afterwards, you can sing along to this:

You Think Of A Good Title

Take a look. Seriously. Take another one. Maybe even five more.
It's hard for me to express how this video makes me feel. Probably because I'm a "musician", too. (Such a loaded word - musician. I don't know if I am one or not, but I'm working on it)

Music has always resonated in me. & doesn't it in all of us? However, there's a special pull towards music in my life. There's a spark that's ignited when I hear a good jazz tune, an inspiring symphony, or a profound ballad by some obscure artist who's laid their heart on the table in hopes that the world will take notice. But lately it's been a little rough in the music department for me. I've lacked that inspired feeling. The joy was slowly draining & the rush I usually get from performing wasn't there.
Until recently. & I think this video nails it.
As mentioned previously, I'm going on a mission. Soon. Very soon, in fact. & I'm excited for the next year and a half of my life. I know it will be wonderful! & crazy hard. But mostly wonderful. I know that to most, giving up a year and a half of your life, especially when you're 21 & trying to pursue music, is ludicrous. Who does that?! As a good friend of mine told me when he found out I was going on a mission - I should be "knocking down doors" at my age! To this friend, who maybe still doesn't quite understand why I'm leaving, I would say: but I am going to be knocking down doors. Just not for auditions or talent agencies. For what I believe. Out of context it does sound a little crazy. A little ridiculous. But this crazy, ridiculous & amazing religion that I believe in, has made me who I am. A lot of people in the past have somehow separated me from my religion in their minds. This usually happens when said people do not agree with or necessarily like my beliefs. What they don't realize is...you cannot separate me from my beliefs. I am my beliefs. My beliefs are me. I literally would be a different person without them. They don't know that, but I do.
So music. What does my religion have to do with music? I'm going to switch the roles of Brandon and me for a moment. (It's fine - Brandon Flowers & I are on a first name basis) Now, obviously I'm not a famous rockstar, & I'm not married with children, & I'm not a boy. But I love music! & I want to make it a prominent part of my life (among other things). For a little while in the recent past I went through my own little mini Dark Ages. I started to doubt myself, & therefore I started to doubt God. (Ouch, that's hard to write). I didn't realize it then, & I definitely would never admit it if I did, but I know now that's exactly what I was doing. Then I decided to serve a mission! & like Brandon, I discovered there's a "fire still burning" in there! For Brandon, at this point in his life, his fire fuels his family. It fuels his love as a father and as a husband. For me, my fire fuels my passion for music. The closer I get to November 9, the more I want to sing, to play, to compose. The closer I get to November 9, the more I want to be my best self for my Heavenly Father & part of that, for me, is developing my love and passion for music. & why not? Doesn't the bible say,"The Lord is my strength and song"?
So, I guess the best way to wrap this up is to say - My name is Sara Pulsipher. I'm 21 years old. I'm a singer. I'm a performer. & I'm a Mormon.

Genius

I don't have time to write a full post but....I adore this man. Maybe the most creative performer in the WORLD. And all it takes is a microphone and a bottle of water.

PS: I sang a duet with him. Just sayin.

But Mom, it's TOO early...

Let's get one thing straight right. now. I am NOT a morning person. Yes, it's true - I did spend 12 years of my life getting up early enough to shove some breakfast down my throat, brush my teeth in time to be to school at 8am, and somehow managed to be dressed and looking somewhat decent (this is probably where my "showering" habits came from). I even spent four of those years getting up extra early for 6am seminary! - a Sunday school type of class held every school day for high school age members of the church.
But what can I say? The least I can say is, it didn't stick. Not even a little bit. I now have difficulty being up in time to be dressed and ready to go for a 9am class. And this is without showering. (So I'm greasy. Get over it.) Anyway, you get the point. My love for mornings that I once had as a child, that love that motivated me to get up at the crack of dawn to get my chores done (which sometimes involved vacuuming the living room. Sorry siblings /: ) so I could have the maximum amount of time to play with friends, has flown. Long ago, I'm sorry to say.
Alright, so, why am I telling you this? The point is I've recently decided (willingly) to give up my sleeping habits once again. Don't worry, it's all for a worthy cause. I think. Just kidding. ...but really. I've decided to serve a mission for my church, which, among many, many other things, means rise-and-shine at 6:30 am EVERY morning. Seriously, every morning. Starting November 10th. This year. No more Saturday morning snuggle time (with my pillow) for me! AND, (get this) bed time at 10pm e'ery day. Another hard pill for me to swallow, considering I follow right in my mom's footsteps in her late-night love affairs with homework, craft projects, etc. Of course my late nights usually consist of Facebook and Pinterest. BUT, I digress...
The point is - WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?! I know this will be good for me! I know I can do it. I know I can! (right?) I even decided to try to soften the blow by starting to live this schedule before I take off for a year and a half. That way, fingers crossed, when I wake up on November 10th I'll feel refreshed and ready to tackle the day, instead of feeling like a zombie Dorothy, groggily clicking my heels together and trying to get home, hoping it's all just a bad dream.
What was I thinking?
Let's just say that Frankenstein probably makes a better first impression in the morning than me. Picture this: last night I went to bed at the healthy hour of 9:30 and woke up this morning at 6:45 with every intention of eating breakfast, and then going on a little jog, like a good missionary should. Well, my early morning jog was great! Destination: down the hallway to my room/bed (I slept in the guest room last night. Sometimes, my bed is covered with boxes from storage). Completion time: approximately 30 sec. & breakfast? non-existent.
Sigh...I'm hopeless.
However, in my defense this is my first attempt at this new schedule. Every habit takes time to form, right? I will, as the old adage says, try, try again, because we all know I wasn't even close to succeeding. Tomorrow I'll try to get up 15 minutes earlier. Monday I'll try the whole 30 minutes of exercise thing again. (You guys, tomorrow is the Sabbath! I can't work out then. Sillies.) Maybe one of these days I'll even make it to the breakfast table before I plop down and start whining about it all on blogger! Until that day, you can find me in my bed, with my incredible bed-head (seriously, though, short hair makes the BEST bed-head), repeatedly pressing the snooze button and wondering what the heck I signed up for.

Signed,
Your most dedicated sister missionary

Ah, the joys...

Sometimes being at Bethany's makes me excited/just the teeniest bit nervous for parenthood. This scene graced me literally seconds ago -

Both kids were asked to go wash their hands by Bethany after eating a hearty breakfast of french toast and bananas. Shortly after they entered the bathroom Marie started crying...and then screaming. LOUDLY.

Bethany: Marie, you are not dying. 
Marie (through tears): But mommy I am done!
Bethany: You're not dying. So stop screaming like you're dying!
William (running up the stairs & also, at this point, crying) tells Marie desperately: Marie! Stop crying!

I have no idea what happened. But it was very dramatic. Obviously, they are both happy as clams now. *sigh* Such is life.

Lately

So lately I've been in this "I-want-to-write-music" sort of phase. It's been going surprisingly well! We'll see how long it lasts. It's funny how easily I can perform works and pieces by others, but when it comes to my own feelings and hard work...forget it! I chicken out. I don't think it's my soul I'm afraid of exposing though, cause, let's be honest, if you know me, I do that e'ery day! But my music on the other hand...that's something I'm a little self-conscious about. Here's to exposed souls & notes! ...or something like that.

In the meantime, enjoy this girl's brilliance:

What the plank?!

So I've recently been highly and most exceedingly confused as to what this new fad (yes...fad) is, that I've heard referred to as planking. Good thing wikipedia has all the answers...


Planking or the lying down game is an activity consisting of lying face down in an unusual or incongruous location. The hands must touch the sides of the body and having a photograph of the participant taken and posted on the internet is an integral part of the game.^[1] Players compete to find the most unusual and original location in which to play.^[1] The term planking refers to mimicking a wooden plank.
Since 2011, many participants in planking have photographed the activity on unusual locations such as atop poles, roofs and vehicles, while some "plankers" engage in the activity by planking only their upper body and feet while leaving the back suspended.

She wins